He Just Started Showing Her Why She Is Not Important Anymore

He did not leave her, he just started showing her why she is not important anymore. Far often people say that love is something that last forever or true love lasts forever but really? Does something last forever? For me it is too hard to define love,specially when it comes on my love life.

I still remember those nights when he and me used to talk till early morning. For sure we dint use to have very important things to talk on but all we wanted to keep talking. Is not it cute?? :* :* for me it was so much special. I used to be on cloud nine when i talk to him, i used to blush a lot, each time i see him. This feeling was so magical for me. He used to call me and says, " Uth gaya mera bacha" These words used to make my day. Not only this but his each action, his loads of love was like a blessing to me. That early morning chat, I was falling in love for the first time and the experience was too good. He used to sing a song for me however singing was something which he used to hate as he was a terrible singer :p but for me he used to sing :) An Aww moment.

Its been 6 months for our relationship and there are so many special moments which i really want to share with you all but i think if would start telling you all those things then you people will get jealous for sure. Haha !! 

Yeah so it was the day when our half year anniversary was supposed to be celebrated. He was very romantic and what he planned for us was beyond my imagination. He planned a beautiful date. The whole view was so beautiful with so many lamp lights. That evening could not be more special than this. I really wanted this day to go on go on and go on. I really do not want this moment to be ended. One thing about him was so mesmerizing and that's each time i used to see him, his eyes were always on me. We were so in love. There is an another reason also for this day to be special and that was the moment we kissed for the first time. He came close to him, he hold my hand and pulled me close to him. We were so close that I could feel his breathe. He was also too nervous as i was. He looked in my eyes as he was asking me for that kiss, and i slowly closed my eyes. That moment i felt so complete. I could not explain exactly what i feel. That was my first kiss, my first love. This was an everlasting love until he said, he needs breakup !!

** HEART SMASHING MOMENT **

After more than 5 months later, things started getting changed. Each morning he used to send me morning text or call so somewhere it became a habit for me to wake up with his text or call but now he is so damn busy in his life. He hardly, text twice a day. I used to call him many times not taking it as irritating thing for him but most of the time NO RESPONSE,, i was so sure that i was getting ignored but i wish i could just get the reason why the love which was so deep, just fades away?     

I was so modulated to talk to him. I was sure that the love can't fade away like this. Things were getting worse and all these things were affecting me mentally and physically. I waited, waited and waited a lot for his one text or call. I cried to myself. Each night i used to tear up by remembering all those moments we loved together. Each beep on my phone, used to give me a new hope but then again a disappointment. Days passed by, month passed by but someone for whom i was his life, how often he was so well without his life? Its so heart breaking to keep waiting for him. Each morning i used to wish him to come back but !! I never cried fir someone like this ever before, remembering all the moments with him brings tear in my eyes as i am in tears writing this. 

All i wanted him to text me, to let me know that i am as important as before for him. I never stopped talking to him but i was not sure as if my text were wanted or not? Last time i talked him on Diwali festival. Honestly speaking, I never felt the same for any other guy since him however I have dated another boy but this was just to forget him. I could not love some one, care for someone as i used to do for him. Our love story wasn't so  devastating , just a awful ending. 

I loved, i truly LOVED the time we had together. If i could have another chance to go back to him, to be his girl again, i am not sure what i'd do. 

Still now, my friends tease me by his name, and it brings a smile on my face. Yes i loved him and may be i still do. 

I miss him, Miss him a lot but I will never be able to tell him that. 

I think each love story has to end. Some ends with a happy ending and some bad ending. There is nothing like forever, No love is everlasting, no matter how deeply you want it to be.  

    

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A Little Girl Always Needs Her Dad By Her Side - Unspeakable Feelings

Dad - A girl's first hero and love. The relation of a girl baby and dad is so pure and so undefined. I guess its not less than any blessing to have a dad but some people do not have such blessings. Yeah today i am gonna share you a true story,,how the absence of dad, makes a gal feel that she is not special anymore. 

Its a story of a little girl, a story of an unlucky girl i would say!!

Tiara was about to born when her dad  died by an accident. She grew up without her dad. she was now 2 years old girl and the magic was, even after not being with her father, even after knowing her mommy only,,the first word which she uttered from her mouth was, "Dedda" !!

Should we call her, eternal love for her father or the a silent question to her mommy about her dad!!

It was all okay till the time she started feeling the absence of her father, her hero. Her mom was too busy with her friends, with her work though she always use to say to Tiara that she is her mom and dad and that little girl, having thousands of question in her mind could not utter a single word to her mommy. 

She turned 4 years old now, of course the time of school,friends, new groups, fun, getting new life, new lessons but for Tiara it was like useless. In the parents meeting, when all other children used to come with their mom and dad, she used to miss her dad, when in annual function, children are supposed to come up with their parents, she used to feel the absence of her father. Her all friends used to ask about her dad but that little girl had no idea about it and some how all these things are killing her inside. 

The little girl who is supposed to happy all the time, who is supposed to play with toys, dolls or be in the friends group. She started living in her room, she is the one who tries to be happy all the time and also the one who cries each night while sleeping because all the questions were killing herself. Many times she wanted to ask her mommy about her dad but there was something which dint allow her to ask mommy about that. Of course the satisfaction of her mother of being a great mom and dad of Tiara. But i wish, if she would have known about Tiara feelings, I wish if that little girl would have told to her mommy, why she do not want to school any more, i wish if that little girl would have her father beside who makes her known about her specialty, about her importance. Who could never let her cry, who could read her eyes full of so much of pain which her mommy was not able to see.

Years and years passed and now the little baby was 9 years old. It was a pleasant day, the little girl and mommy were sitting at home and planning for the summer vacations. In between the conversation, that little girl asked, mommy??

The mother answered, with a highly strung tone, "yes baby". The little girl had so much to ask but she never had that much to courage to ask her mom all those things because somewhere Tiara was known, what if she reminds her mommy about dad, she might feel so low or cry hard which Tiara never wanted to happen. That is why all those questions remained in her heart only since last 8 years. She endured the absence of her father many times but today she had decided to ask her mommy about her dad, about her hero. All those memories where her father was supposed to be but was not there were flooding like a cyclone, and she asked in fearful tone, mom, Where is dad??

After hearing this question, both stayed silent for a while, a smiling face of her mommy changed with so much of tension and sadness and that little girl noticed that so quickly. She made herself clear, that her mommy is her dad. She made her clear that now in her entire life, she would never ask this question again to her mommy and just changed the topic.The girl was just 10 years old, but her way of understanding, her emotions, her remarkable control on her emotions and feeling was tremendous. At this age, most of the children, are very stubborn, they need to have what they want but that little girl had only her mommy, and for her, she was the meaning of her life. That little baby never wanted to make her mommy cry, no never!!

Now the little girl was of such age that she was getting understand the things well. She noticed that an uncle used to come at their home most of the time. Her mommy used to have very less time for her baby, for her Tiara but for uncle, she used to spend whole day with him. All these things disturbed her again, she was known that he is not her dad for sure because, A dad can never be so rude with his child. That man was very rude to Tiara, he used to snatch her toys and throw it away. He used to panic her a lot. Most of the times, Tiara tried to tell her mommy about all these but the moment she saw that uncle kissing her mom, she broke into pieces. She cried so hard that day.

It was so painful to that little girl to understand that, her mommy is not of her anymore. Till the age of 15, each child require some affection, care and love of parents but unluckily Tiara was not lucky enough for all these. As like an ordinary child, that little girl always wanted to hear someone calling her, princess. She always dreamnt as if someone could hold her hand and make her strong, she always wanted someone who can understand her. May be she all she wanted to be her Father, may be she wanted her life to be a happy life.

For her, it was very painful to be with that uncle but she stayed as she had no other option. All these things were making feel solitary each day. Her mother was too happy with her boyfriend that she could not feel the pain, her daughter was suffering from. I wish she would have known, would have known of all those little dreams of her little girl.

The girl was of 15 years old. This experience had made her very conservative and self centered girl for this reason, people used to call her very rude and it may be a reason that she had no friends till this age but i wish if someone could just come to her and ask her, why she is like this?

If someone could just come to her and let her know that she is special. Tiara had become so strong, may be so strong in pretending. She had so many reason to gave her life, but she chose to be stayed however things were getting even worse but that little girl had to live this life, life which was given her by her father. The only thing which relates that little girl to her Father.     

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Three Big Mistakes Girls Do When They Get In Relationship

Well as we all know that love has become a trend now a days. One could easily get someone to love or we can say some one to be with for a while. For a guy, to get the girl of his dream, all it needs his status, his money, his popularity or yeah of course his LOOKS and for a girl to be famous among boys or men, it needs a lot f make up, hot dresses, hot appearance and yeah an attractive body and face. Have you ever heard that an average looking girl is dating a cool dude?? Have you ever heard that a poor or ugly faced guy is dating a hot chick? Yeah you must have heard it but for sure in stories. All does it matters the status of the another person. Now a days, i hardly get some true love kinda tales. Now a days love is like, meeting, feeling special, trying all the possible thing to make them your yours, then for some month or weeks or days that lobby dobby feelings then getting irritated of course no one wants the other person to judge our life and at last some emotional mello drama and lastly break up. Well my words are quite harsh but all these are something which i call REALITY. Face it or ignore it. It will remain same. If accidentally you get someone better than you and each night you sleep with a fear of not loosing them then all you have to take care of some things. 

1) Never pretend them that you have only they to make you feel good. Do not let them feel that you can't move a long without them. Here i have a question for you girls,,why do you feel so insecure about your guy?? I mean if he had to cheat you then he would do it. No matter what and if his intentions are good and he just loves you then no other girl can steal him from you then why to get mad over each single thing and make thing worse. 

2) Don't expect much. Well this is one of the most important and necessary thing you should take care off. Well i know that whenever we become someone's dear one so expecting things from them is quite common thing and it is good sometimes too but do not expects a lot. Instead of expecting your bf to make you feel special, do something which will amaze him.  

3) Instead of his girlfriend, be his best friend first. Don't act like his mumma. Be his guy friend so that whenever he needs something to share, he won't hesitate but if you'l keep taunting him over silly issues then he might get irritated from all these. If not today then maybe later but keep in mind, he will. 

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Something Which Remain Unsaid - Unspeakable Feelings

Sometimes I wonder about what is love? Does it exist in my life? Well there are so many questions are there in my mind and sadly i dint get a single answer of any one of them. When i was a teenager life was quite enjoyable. I was enjoying my life with my friends and was not aware of this unspeakable feeling. I guess love is a poet, which cannot be understood in words but can surely be given reflection thereof. Sometimes when I lay down on my bed in the dark I used to ask some common questions to myself.

What is first love? Do I still love him?

Why till now I feel so secure when he talks to me?

Why everything looks so good by just thinking about his presence in my life.

I know there is no point in remembering the past but what if Past is the only thin g which gives you lots of happiness. What if just by remembering all the moments spent with him brings a huge smile on your face? I guess I will never get the answers of these questions because some feelings are good to be unspoken. I regret that i left his hand when he needed my support but there were some my reasons too. I know i can’t get him back and i do not want to get him back either all i want that he stays happy always and forever. He gets best in his life. I don’t much about Love but i guess I loved you, loved you from the core of my heart but couldn't express these feeling. 

Yeah these feelings will be Unspeakable Feelings always.  

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